Beautifully Complex…

She is woven, entangled with elements creating and building a core strength of who she is. A chain of organic molecules formed attaching to atoms bringing life to her being. The complexity of her womanhood started at the very beginning when her cells started to multiply. When she was hiding in the womb being intricately created.

To be considered intricately made gives the overwhelming sense that her Maker designed her intimately and complex, building layers as He shaped and formed.

Intricate: Solvable or comprehensible only with painstaking effort. (

With painstaking effort.

Isn’t the very essence of a woman screaming out to be loved?

The core of her being longing for acceptance?

 To be found in rawness and wildly encountered in the place where she is discovered?

Her character may portray a hardness due to barriers and hurt yet inside she is silently yelling for something else, something more that will act as an oxygen to her starving lungs. The vicious cycle yearning and seeking love is hidden under hard exteriors that ends up causing destruction as her learnt behaviour goes around and around…

 The angst builds tearing relationships and the heart apart exposing the raw truth of who she really is… “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” (Romans 7:14 NIV)

Its with painstaking effort she must wake from her slumber that she has fallen in to. Awake soul awake. The trap of the enemy is sneaky as he attempts to keep her heart rotting. Bleeding with brokenness.

It’s only when she acknowledges her state can change occur.

To dig deep and explore takes a supernatural courage that only He can give. It calls her to remove the dirt and rubble with one stone at a time. He designed her heart to be pure, lovely, captivating and inspiring to those watching. A quiet and gentle spirit of a woman who loves God is the most beautiful trait she can obtain. She must bodly place her masks down in order to truly find herself.


One thought on “Beautifully Complex…

  1. I hear you Han, awesome words my friend… and hard words. But as you say a piece of that rubble at at time. You have the strength in him to do anything! Keep going and you will find that victory you seek!

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